Hot tears burning my eyes, I refused to cry giving in. No longer believing in happy ever after…queue the laughter. No longer trying to win, should have never got in…But trying not to sin… I let him come in and try to take over, a no limit solider. Doing what my momma said not to do. “Girl, don’t you let no man control you” I hear you mama, it’s too late I said…quieting down momma’s voice in my head. You’ve made your bed now, in it you’ve got to lay. Does that mean I have to stay? Through all of the disappointments and all of the pain…in the words of that song…through the sunshine and through the rain. Still continue to make that drive to work…I knew this shyt was gonna hurt telling him how much he is a jerk and why I should have never to that step. Trying to put back together what’s left of this relationship, no longer keeping my lips sealed…not even giving him something he can feel…it ain’t gonna happen it’s over I’m done…why do I have to keep fighting with you in front of our son. He’s looking at us with a little pain on  his face…I do not want him to be a part of the place that we’re in, I’m getting ready to leave, finally letting the tears fall, rubbing my eyes on my sleeve…I can’t continue to go through this, it’s taking away from me all of my hopes and wishes. No more sweet kisses, no more holding hands, no more wedding bands. Just emptiness where love once was. You can’t make love; you can love and be loved. Not yelling and screaming and throwing fist, not kicking and punching and having fits, all because you can’t get your way…you can’t have your say…I’ll say it for you. I’m leaving today…